Feening
for you
Hopelessly
hooked
Romantically
ameliorated
Found
Bound
Drowned
by my desire
for
only you
Trained
Chained...
craving
for your touch
Living with you
constantly
tugging...
prancing...
mentally hugging
this addicton 
to your erotic drugging
Feening for you
I need you
It's no more a want
It's a "I got to have" now
Your voice
amplifies my senses
Your essence frolicks
buc-naked before me
care-free
through my being
teasing my individuality
You're the other half
of my day
The reason I stay
so close
Obligated to fulfill
every caper
every request
every sexxy whim
of our love explosions
of your heated elevations
The things
you make me do
Caught exposed
on private
no nosey neighbors
mature version
x-rated film
Feening for you
Never
meaning for you
to forget
that I'm dreaming of you
in embellished hues
Walking barefoot
Talking
in soft sweet whispers
in my ear
feeling you
near
That's all
I seem to do
when you're away
I find myself

feening
for
you

Prostrate.....
lying underneath the sun

thinking about
how it all went wrong
So many decisions I have made

Plans
disappointed
are the plans
not best made
Played
and I thought
I had it made in the shade
What I found out
I was never
number one
The longest journey
begins
with a single step
But, I'm weary, Lord
Tired of trying
to make them happy
tired of trying to fix everything
Life holds guarantees
but not for me,
it seems
I know
what you're gonna say...
Cast your burdens on me
I'm trying Lord
One step forward
two steps,
and I'm falling again
I know
which way to go...
but why do I keep on falling

Think I'm gonna stay here
on my knees....

"...ye though I walk
through the valley
in the shadows of death,
I will fear
no evil..
for thou art with me
thy rod,
and thy staff-
they comfort me..
thou prepare-st a table
before me...
in the presence
of mine enemies..."

My
undying
respect
and loyalty
to you
originates
in my augmented desire
to be
under
your spell
It is also fueled by
this one lingering truth-
the one that reminds me
that my love for you
is irrefutably
in my heart to stay
Out of all the moments
that we have shared
together,
what matters most
to me now
is the undeniable
longing
intensity
that we find
in each other's eyes
The devotion
'I'm so willing to dispatch'
that I set before your feet
fueled by
sweet adulation
which I build all my hopes upon
I wait for you
to render
my direct commands...
to unmercifully berate me
Desiring to be
lifted
and gifted
by your sensuous touch
I long
to be your martyr
for every crime of need
sex,
love
and passion
you ever thought
to commit
I happily do the time
serving
as radical
revolutionary
slave to your whims
each
and every one of them
the willing recipient
of whatever vindictive
erotic
massacre
you wish to commit
I want
all of it!

I surrender

to

your will...

I Love you....But

You
are not
more important
to me than I am to me
things you ask me
to do for you
what you ask me to accept
I just cannot
The winding roads
we traveled together
brought
both of us
so much excitement
so much laughter
and fun
I could be anything
or as much
as you wanted me to be
But I refuse to be
an afterthought
Consider my feelings,
please, Baby
Being the other woman
is hard enough
already
Don't treat me like a stranger
In her presence
When you can't see me
or be with me
Can you be kind enough
to call me
When you need me
to talk,
or whatever...
consider if I'm busy,
or not
I love you so much,
but we have to make
some changes
before we end up enemies
instead of souls destined to meet
or, people who just pass on the street
filled
with so much hatred
that we lose ourselves
I would rather work it out now
than live my life
having to remember
to be so cold
when you're around
or

when you really need me....

sitting here,
quietly
in the periphery of happiness
time spent mourning
in the moonlight's sad luminiscence
vulnerable
as the air of oscillating doom
I have nothing left to lose
since the moment
you told me
goodbye
I searched within the depths
of my broken spirit
for just one reason why
I sat there,
as tears filled my eyes
symbolizing some form of emotion
that I now acknowledge I felt
refusing to let you know
how I ached inside
words
that could make us
or break us
I fought to hide
They could explain my actions
or arbitrate my point
I wanted to come to you
and fix the mess
but I knew that I couldn't
the deed was done
my time
supposed to be spent with you
now in jeopardy
I recede to my fate
because I was with her
I sit, looking foolish now
looking a melodramatic mess
No satisfaction does it give me now
But to let my tears fly free
on this paper,
on this moistened page...
just crying for me
Is it a shame to lose this love
before it has begun...
Why did it come to this?
Your sweet words,
symbolizing hope
even your comforting tone
God, I already miss
The nights we shared,
the tindrel place that we found
to exist together in
is now quietened
Your love was my meal,
Your words were my food
and your smile-
my drink
For dessert I savored your kiss
You knew me like no other
I was so proud to say
with a vestigial of truth
even if to myself...

I love you