joyce's posts with tag: poetry
I have the memories to prove it...written all over my heartetched in yesterday's sandWe weren't supposed to lose the friendshipTime would not keep us apart againWe'd found something so grandthat wouldn't be put asideWe called it loveduring passionate nights as loversand days of growing closer.... in a friendship neither of us could hideSo special that we found itSo excitingSo uniqueSo up front you werein everything you said to meI never thought that one day these same words would revealeverything about your intentionsthe ones that you never let me feelLove has now become a masqueradesome maddening, callous schemeA tool for your own gainYou have made love a dishonor to it's nameShe walks in......And I see it all co clearNow I understand...why I spent the better part of yesterdaywritingI.L.L.U.S.I.O.N....in the sandjakuper(5/26/06)
Until He comes back open the skies opens closed hearts and blinded eyes there will be no peace and trust will fade away Jesus is the only answer to this world today In an age when we know so much still, we're so out of touch Instead of fighting each other we should embrace each other as sister and brother The hand that holds the future is reaching within calling us every day from our unforgiven sins But......Until He comes back and open the skies opens our closed hearts and blinded eyes we will never really hear humanity's cries...
 Circle of Woman..Goddess of Love
She shares with me a
listening ear.....but I must really listen. No interrupting her, no
daydreaming while she is talking, no planning my responses before she's
had her say. Respecting her is the only way she can teach me something
about me each and every day.
She gives me all the affection I
need. Hugs, loving kisses, holding my hand, and patting me on my back
when I'm down. She touches me, to lift my spirit high. These smalls
things demonstrate the most genuine love I've ever found. And, I will
cherish it until the day I die
I listen as she laughs at my
silly jokes. We share life stories by the fire. We play Spades
together, shop together, and go out to eat, dressed up in our evening
attire.. She gives me directions, sometimes ordering my food. We love
to talk....just us two. She is always in the mood.
She writes my name under hers. I realize we are one. If I take care of this love, I know I won't need another one.
She
compliments me on my dress. Not real elegant, because I was never big
on wearing my best. She sees in me...a beautiful, soft simplicity.
Warmth, understanding, and everlasting love from me. I gladly give it
because the purest love.... is absolutely free
Her kisses taste
like berries fresh from the vine. She renders me drunken with her
intoxicating sexual wine. Her heart is full of a sweet, sacred
sensuality. She keeps reminding me that she is dedicated to only me.
From
the first one in the morning to the wildest one, late at night.....we
will kiss each other a million times, until we get it right.
When
I'm in her presence, it feels like the very first time. Everything she
does, says, or feels...feels like I've never done it before. Just the
sound of her voice makes me wish I could give her so much more.
It only takes a minute to make an impression. She's made one on me......
She is WOMAN......a reflection of my own femininity
D
r
i
p
drip
dripping
lust of my lover
Spilling
onto me
into me
into the covers
Watching
her work
She takes her time
She takes my clit
into her mouth...
all of it
this time
Then she slides all of her
inside of me
as she confides in me
her desire for me
Bouncing
on top of me
Thrusting
around in me
Feels like she is bending me
.....breaking me
Her tongue
wildly pouncing
...inside of me
For hours we tangle
the dampened covers
dancing
like we are first-time lovers
It always feels like
the first time
Sliding up
and down this body of mine
back and forth
Toes turned north
then south
Passion burning us up
...long wet,
perspiring
kisses in the mouth
Those sensual sex faces
and noises we make
Energies spent..
how much more can I take
Greedy I am--
but, it's our routine
I can't get enough of it..
This is better than any dream
Waters oozing
desires
still secreting
from our tired clammy skin
But, we're both exhausted now
We rest....until it's time to begin again
Then it's my turn....
jakuper(4/5/07)
The sounds she makes for me in bedstill fill my headMoaning so deepand then....we sleepLying beside her with her scentlike peppermintLicking my lipswasting no dripsIn her is where my desire liesjuicy, thick thighsopening wide....going insideIf I drown, I really don't careI belong thereShe is my singoing back inIt's time for the tables to turnmy turn...I earnI get to seeher....doing meIt's anything she wants to dolove, made for twoI gladly waitin anxious state
jakuper(3/28/07)
Once upon a fallacy I soared on wings of love.
Today, I wonder--
what was I ever thinking of?
With willful wings mangled
and burning with lust
I soared to Love's acidic heights
looking for the love
I once found
in us
Seeking diligently
for it's empyrean comforts
The only thing that interrupted me
from reaching that peak
was another jealous fights
and devotion
that proved very weak
My unchaste ears naively privy
to sordid stories
of her scheming deceits
My heart burned
within me
and as lies wrangled my course
the disgust burned in me
I said nothing
I did nothing
I expected nothing
I guess I hoped that prayers
would hold us together always
when it only took devotion
No matter how many times we snatched love back
from Hades strong hold
it was very evident
to see
That that love was not meant for me..
jakuper(3/22/07)
 * For Keeta
Opening old wounds
every time
he speaks
Your eyes
crying
crimson tears
that he
cannot see
Domestic damage done
Every day
of the week
but it still feels
just like the last one
Why stop now?
The last few days taking your kindness for weakness
Asking you
for shyt you don't normally do but because
you want him back
'you let him make a fool of you'
Why stop now?
You take the shyt
he dishes out to you Let him
braid
his own damn hair
So what
if he shows off acting like he doesn't care
If he can't
help you out
he has no business there
How much more blood do you owe himTell him to get the Hell outta there
Why stop now?
You feeding him
fucking him
washing his dirty clothes
When he gets off workwhere he is til time to sleep
no one ever knows
Back to baby's mamaAnd still gets home to see where your money goes
Why stop now?
It's crazy love
anyway
You say he doing silly shyt he knows
will make you mad
But when he on top of you
You're the best loving
he ever had
Why stop now?
When a woman's really fed up
and knows
she deserves better
she'll do something
different
She will STOP!
I am spring. I am reborn againanother fresh beginningmmmhmmmcomfortable againIn my own skin again After the coldness of winter's grinI can boast of newnessNoticing my own feathers...so bright and spring-likeI am like a bird in your hand,don't you understandI got another chanceI'm chilling because I knowa change is gonna come.....I ain't caged no more
 Paint me softlyIn promises of HOPEErase away painIn the beauty ofyour colored array.Cascade across our spiritsin heavenly display.Seal us in our destinyIn worths guardedmore than equalto the pot of Gold.Lend us
Peace
In shades of Tranquility
Grace us Love
under a dome of humility.
Replace our eyes upon our hearts
resting our visions pure.
Let our Love glorify
In the eyes of Thy
Instill deep within our roots
Brother & Sisterhood
May the followers of the leader
be fed spiritual fruit
May the disbelievers believe
Above the Rainbow of the Heavens
promises everlasting truth.
There's beauty
In hope
that the pot of gold
contains
a precious promise
of life.
All you have to do
is open your hearts eyes
and witness
the Heavens Rainbow.
What's beyond the rainbow
is the same thing
from one end
to the other
HOPE
Promise
The beauty of life
The challenges
The ups and downs..
It's all covered
No one is above pain,
or trials, or sickness...
but we have a written promise.
"It won't always be this way."
Happy endings--
always believe in them
If you believe...
that is your pot of gold.
Life is meant to be fully lived
the good taken with bad
The joy of it all..
knowing Jesus suffered,
so the scars don't have to last
The promise of Hope is like Heaven
It's a written guarantee
Pots of gold is
whatever is precious to you
Whether it is health,
happiness, success, or prosperity...
That's what's at the end of the rainbow...
*Expressions of Suga/jakuper
Todayis the presentbecause it is my giftYouare a gift to meYou encourage meYour presence lights my worldYour heart that you let me holdis a miracle worth it's weight in goldIf you look close enoughyou will find melooking at you endlesslyI take my cursor and outline the smileon your faceI dream about what it would be like to touch your lips with mineto brush my skinagainst your fingertips(deep sigh)No one will love youas tender as I doI love youYesterday is history....I can't believe I was so close to youI can't believe I knew youso personallyI can't believe that every new daywas filled with thoughts of what we could betogetherThe whole time thing is so funny to mehow one minutewe can be so caught upin sweet kisseswarm embracingand courting conversationsand the next....strangersacross a crowded roomhaving to remember not to speakBut I remember everything about youEverything you told meI will never forgetI spend all my waking momentsin remembranceof a yesterdayof a beautiful lovegone too soon
jakuper(2/20/07)
 holding onbecause it might not be coming backWhat if...I don't really believe in loveand only pretend to play the gameWhat if I really under minded your feelingsand refused to take all the blameI know that I'm not readyto just lay it down and let it dieDoes that mean
I don't get my medaluntil I have won what I'm fighting for--
Peace and love between you and IWhat if I never get to experience the love that I so desireWhat if that box I'm closed withinnever opens up for meWhat if I never find the words to sayto make things rightWhat if nothing I said made sense to me anymoreand I was unable to feel youand you no longer felt me Would that be the end of what we were living forOr would we find a way to get past itWhat if my mistake was telling the truthI ask myself over and over again"What power does the truth hold with us?" What if all the mistakesI made with my eyes widely openedhit me back in my faceWhat if I was lyingand you know I didn't really careWould you be fighting so hard for what's left
Sitting
here in the emptiness of thought placing my pen to paper or my fingers to the keys a deafening silence erupts a nauseating void Nothing comes out. My words frozen in time barricaded within hedged to the ceiling of my brain Diked in the hallways of everything I never said My thoughts just sitting there on an embankment chilling having nothing to say
 My love for you is a fusion of feelingsfeelings that range from love,to it's extreme...painLove has it's own definition for meI can only experience what my love for youmeans to meSometimes it's that maddening feeling that leaves me unable to concentrate on anythingon anyone else but youIt's a feeling that grows over timeI now know how it is that couples can become satisfiedwith being together for many, many years Like me, they found what they were looking forAnd decided that's where they want to beI know this is where I always want to befor good times and in the bad timesFor the days we don't even know whyand for an eternityWhile some will say love is elusiveand they can never find "the one"the love I feel for youshould be felt by everyone at least oncebecause sometimes its even too deep for meHow much I invest into itdetermines how much my return isI know to grow deeper in love would meana point of no return for meWhen I think of you it's that loudest heartbeat that resonates through mewhen we embraceI sighEverything in me tenses up, and becomes excited You are the object of my affectionYou own the desire that rises up inside of mewhen I see your faceWith the mention of merely your name, no matter who calls itNothing I do or say feels the sameI stumble and check my words I attempt to sharpen my approachYour touch sends fire throughout my loinsYour voice moves the want in me to moanEvery second spent in your embrace is where I want to make my homeTime spent with you is like investing in my futureOne moment at a time in your armsis worth years of bliss The returns--a whole lot of love
stored up
for those timeswhen we are apart.
It's you that I miss I watch as my lust slips between the covers of your heart that loves so hard my hands touch the ambiance of your caressAs my body wails in tears from a sensationthat equals the heights of desire and happinessEvery time it's differentEvery day, I learn something newEvery day, I have something else to give youA little more of me to fill our cupAnother way to say...I love youHappy Valentine's Day!The CrimeCome inHi!Come closerI like it hereU're blushing, are U afraid?I don't knowWell, don't beI guess I am just a little nervous, U make me...I don't know what it is U make me, I...(Scandalous)Why are U looking at me like that?It's getting warm in hereYeah it is getting warm in hereLet's go in the bedroomWhat's in there?A windowI can't wait, babyTill I can wrap my legs around U girlCuz sugar U know U're just the kind of loverThat I've been looking 42night why don't we skip all the foreplay, mamaAnd just get down here on the floor?CHORUS:Scandalous, I'm talkin' 'bout U and meMarvelous, baby, baby, can't U see?Anything U ever dreamed of, I'm willing 2 be2night is gonna be scandalousCuz 2night I'm gonna be your fantasyIt's so dark in hereI can see UWhat do I look like?OverdressedOkay, how about now (My dearest)Now, what do I look like?U're blushing, are U afraid?Give me your handWhich one?Give me your hand(Hmm) Come on, come on (Ohh)Anything's acceptable, just ask me and I'll try it2 hell with hesitations2 hell with the reasons why(Scandalous) U're shakingI know, I can't help it(Marvelous) Aww, is that better?YesAnything U ever dreamed of, I'm willing 2 be2night it's gonna be scandalousCuz 2night I'm gonna be your fantasyBaby, baby, babyWhere am I?Where do U wanna be?Right here, right hereAnything U ever dreamed of, I'm willing 2 be2night is gonna be scandalousCuz 2night I'm, 2night I'm gonna be your fantasyCHORUSScandalousMarvelousThe PassionCome (Come) closer (Closer)Feel what U been dyin' 4 (Put your hand on my thigh)(Higher and higher)Don't be afraid, baby (Even in between)Touch it and explode (Wherever U want, it's alright)(I don't mind, cuz U so fine)Understand, understand that I love U (U so sensual)Ah, but more than that - I want U (When I first saw U on the dance floor,honey)(I just had 2, ooh)Everybody always told me good things come 2 those who wait (Over and over)(Desire, U and me)But I've got so much on the menu (Pumpin the electric intercourse)I just can't, I just can't, I can't wait, baby (Ooh fantasy)I can't wait, baby (Can we please do it? Let's do it by the mirror baby)(So I can see what I wanna see)I can wrap my legs all around U girl (Be what I want 2 be)Cuz sugar, U know U're just the kind of lover (I wanna suck your everyemotion)That I've been lookin' 4 (Right straight outta your mind)2night why don't we skip all the foreplay, mama (And then wrap my legs aroundU, mama)And just get down here on the floor (And then slide down here, alright? Oohplease!)CHORUS(Everything U ever dreamed of)(Do it all and so much more)Dear, my, my (Ooh baby)My dearest, my dearestOoohTalk 2 me, pretty warm thang (Whisper)Tell me when U come one timeTalk 2 me, pretty warm thingIt's alright, it's alrightHold me tight, don't U stop 2nightLet's do it baby till the mornin' lightTalk 2 me, pretty warm thangIt's alright, it's alright{repeat over CHORUS}Baby (Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby)Anything U ever dreamed of, baby, just ask me, I'll do, oohAnything at allSpirits rise and spirits fallScandalous, (ooh) I'm talkin' 'bout U and meMarvelous, baby, baby, can't U see?Baby, baby, I love when U talk 2 meTell me what I wanna hearTalk 2 meSo much I want 2 do with U honey, can't U see? (Scandalous)So just talk 2 me, pretty warm thing (Marvelous)Suck your electric ocean, sail your virgin seaBaby, baby, baby, yeah don't U wanna be with me?Everything U dreamed ofShh, I will doThe RaptureScandalousMarvelousScandalousMarvelousWhere am I?Where do U wanna be?Right here, right hereCHORUSScandalousMarvelousScandalous
intimacyfamiliar, affectionatesharing, understanding, laughingprivate affection, comfortable settingkissing, touching, lovingwarm, closerendezvous
 It's your allure
who provides the tease
you enter me
mentally
with literary ease
sucking up the space within
the part of me
I cannot defend
If it were up to me
I would let you in
This hunger in me
is begging you to take
and I don't know
what to make...
of this chaste,
this burning
that you make me feel;
it's a desire
normal lust
cannot
fulfill
I know
that there's plenty more
that's not what I came here for
I was searching
not really trying to find
some answers
for the questions in my mind
I can be found
looking
lurking all around
but I found something here
something
beyond my fear
a kind of excitement
in your words,my dear
when I write sex
its so cold
and formal
when you write sex
its
Sensual
Erotic
X-rated
You are the teacher
Wordologist
Professor
of Mental Copulation,
and it is I
who am graced, honored
and proud
You leave my senses
floating
weightlessly,
shamelessly
on a cloud
...thank you, for being you!
The mood of a song
I bring....
the words to it
I soulfully sing--
Once
Twice
Three times A lady...
and I hope you can see
all the fire,
the excitement
you bring out in me
With the precisioned steps
of a cougar
I move in towards the prey
hoping I can catch it
before it gets away
I watched you
from afar
wondering
who you really are
I watched you
in the night
wondering
if
I just might
catch a sight
a glimpse
before my courage
takes flight....
HELLO
my name is .......
You are a beautiful woman..
inside
and out
You possess a quality about yourself
that I have not seen...
You are not afraid to want what you want
and that is an attribute
to your character..
You are confident
strong willed
and very persistent
If anything,
I should be scared of you
You seem like someone
who would turn my whole world
upside down
In the few days we've talked,
I found myself wanting
to talk to you more
I found a constant
"needing"
to hear your voice
When you whisper my name
beneath soft tones
quickening me
to the bone
I have to stop and listen
and I am most willing
to obey a soft voice
than a rigid tone
When you walked into the room today
I made a point to look around
EVERY
eye was on you!
and of course I was proud
that you came to sit with me
Those subtle body gestures
that you're so good at
like a quick wink
blowing me a kiss
or touching my arm while we talk
even the sexy sway
in your walk
as Mr. Legend sings,
Without a doubt
Heaven
sent an angel down
and she turned my life around..
And, I know whatever comes
we will be alright
when it's cold outside
you keep me warm inside...
jakuper(6/22/06)
 what you looking at...
you neva seen a pretty lil girl
sitting ...
looking out the window..
You like my new dress?
I saw this dress in the store
and I told my mom I had to have it
I feel so pretty today in my new dress and new shoes
It's my brother's birthday today
Kenny isn't around today
but I think about him often, anyway
I think it would be nice if he called me today
What am I looking at,
you asking me
Nothing.
Just looking
I got so many plans
for when I grow up
Things gonna be totally awesome
I'm gonna be a doctor!
I'm gonna find the cure for cancer
I'm going to find every senior citizen a friend
so they won't be lonely...
like all these grandmothers I know
I'm gonna make sure there is enough food
for everyone in the world to eat
Babies won't be born sick
I think I'm gonna erase drugs from the streets
Valentine's Day is coming up
I wonder where is my Valentine at
I know I want a big teddy bear and some candy
If I'm lucky I will get a kiss..(blushing)
I got plans, you see
but, for now I will grow strong and brave
Believe in God, and do everything I can now
My pastor told me.... "trouble don't last always"
So, don't think I'm just sitting here
wasting the day away
I come here every day to this same place.....
I came here to pray.
It's Friday, and I get to go to the movies.
We are going to have so much fun
I hope you have a safe, and fun filled weekend, too
I gotta go now...talk to you lata......
jakuper(2/9/07)
**Pic supplied by Sistahpoet
Frankly, there are few, actually very, very few people that I have put
"all" my trust in...in my whole life. I just haven't met alot of people
that I feel totally comfortable with. I share general details about my
life, and in relationships, closeness is borne over a course of time. I
don't give it overnight.
In life situations, those we associate
with, that we call our friends...we really don't know, or can't know in
a matter of months, or via through a phone line or computer. It takes
time to let your guard down long enough to let someone else in, much
less let multiple people in. The intimate details of your life, and
your personality is only as precious as you hold it up, in front of
others.
Some take your trust as a sign of weakness, instead of a
indication that you are putting your reputation on the line also. When
they break that trust, sometimes you never get it back. Other times, it
may heal on it's own...or take years to recover.
Upon meeting a new
associate, I am always willing to do the work to trust, but it is an
iffy process, with few returns. On the other hand, trust earned is like
money in the bank. You know it's there, and you can use it to negotiate
facts, favors, and share intimate details. It is beautiful if it is
mutual....
Do you have trust issues?
Are you trustworthy?
**read in reverse order**
The look on your facewhen I tell you I just dreamed about youI saw the images in my headknowing my dream was a scene that could only happen in my headI started to writeI wished you in my bedI li |
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